Birth of an Entrepreneur

I was never an impulsive person. I always had to deliberate over any decision for hours, days sometimes, before either missing out, or chickening out.

I remember once about 20 years ago seeing a pair of shoes I absolutely adored in a shop. They were exactly my style (very 70s looking – I was going through a bit of a Starsky and Hutch phase!). They weren’t even expensive – the shop selling them was a typical high street brand. And I had the money. I could easily have bought them. I wanted so badly to buy them.

I didn’t buy them.

And, for weeks and weeks after I regretted it. And, I regretted it even more when the shop sold out and I couldn’t find them anywhere. My boyfriend even started looking in other branches whenever he was near them (and this was before the days of photo messaging, so he was looking for these shoes based purely on my description). All to no avail.

And, 20 years on, I still regret not buying those shoes.

You’d think that the great lesson of that experience was that I would become more impulsive and ensure I never missed out again. But, no. Not really. I went through at least another decade of the same humming and hawing over any decision – especially ones that do not actually matter in the grand scheme of things.

So, why is it that I am now so impulsive? What has changed?

A couple of months ago, I decided on blogging about my journey into entrepreneurship, bought this domain name, created a social media account and just started.

A week ago, I attended a conference supporting tutors in growing their business. I joined a Facebook group, saw the advert, knew I was free on the day and bought a ticket.

Today, I’ve just bought another domain name for a brand I want to build in the future (and not really even the near future).

Even this blog post was impulsive – I didn’t draft it, or even plan to write it ahead of sitting down to type!

So, is it a sign of my age? Now that I’m in my 40s, has my subconscious realised that half of my life is already behind me, so it’s time to stop pissing about and get on with things?

Or, is it my new-found enthusiasm for all things “entrepreneurial” that makes me addicted to putting the next idea into motion?

Maybe it’s a bit of both?

Whatever the reason, I am really enjoying this new side of my personality. Hopefully I can reign it in a bit, though, before I end up with so many projects that none of them ever get off the ground!

I wish I’d had this impulsivity when I was younger. Just imagine how far along I could be on my entrepreneurial journey if I’d started 20 years ago! I could be a millionaire by now!

And I’d probably have bought those trainers too!